...And I'm Not Afraid Anymore

My love, or “obsession”

fightbacktheundertow:

owlincities:

It’s obvious, if you follow me, or have ever even looked at my blog, you know I have a thing for Owl City/Adam Young in general. Like really have a thing. And if you’re reading this, you can probably relate to a degree, because you’re probably reading the Owl City tags or are one of my followers. But I do believe something needs to be said. In real life, it is just as obvious that I have a love for Adam Young. I talk about him, maybe to much, but it’s not really something I can control. Tell me I can, and I don’t really have a problem with having a super one-track mind, but you’d be wrong. Very wrong. Do I like being so one-track minded? No. No I don’t. But you learn to live with things, and I have friends good enough to tolerate it, thank goodness. 

     I get called obsessed, quite a lot. I get called a super fangirl, quite a lot. No surprise, really.  But it kind of hurts me. It’s kind of hard to explain why, I guess. Because I suppose you could call me obsessed, and be right to a degree, as much as I don’t like the label. I also don’t like the label “fangirl.” I realize that I have used that a few times, and some of us loosely call ourselves fangirls. I have to say though, I am not a ‘fangirl’. I am not obsessed, but at the same time I am ‘obsessed’. Now get prepared for an explanation. 

    I am obsessed with the feeling I get from Owl City, or anything o Adam’s music. I am obsessed with the joy he makes me feel, and the longing for better days and places. I am obsessed with the challenge to be optimistic and find what’s beautiful all around me, even if I can’t seem to find it yet. I am not obsessed with Adam himself, I am obsessed with who he is, and the feeling that I want to be someone just like him. He gives everything his best, he finds the beauty in everything, and his faith is so strong. Now how many Justin Beiber fans can say they are obsessed with who Justin Beiber is? Maybe they can, but is he really the kind of person you want to look up to as a role model? So maybe I’m not being bias, being already such a fan of Adam. But I think I may know enough to know that Justin Beiber is not the good Godly person he used to be.  If I am going to be obsessed with any thing, I want it be Owl City. Adam has taught me to be a different person. I’ve learned so much from him. I’ve been depressed before. Not to the point of self harm or anything, but I’ve felt deeply sad before, feeling like I’d never be happy. But back then, I didn’t know to look for the beauty in everything. I’ve learned so so much about myself in the past year. I feel like I didn’t even know myself until recently. I feel like I’m finding my full potential. I’m not really just a fan of Owl City, and am kind of sickened by the label ‘fangirl’ being stuck to me. Because, Owl City is a part of who I am. If I didn’t have it in my life, I may still be the sad girl I once was. Looking for brighter days, but not ever thinking to look in the days I was living. Owl City is something inspiring. It’s not all about love and romance, but can be interpreted that way if you wish at times. It’s what you make it. I’ve made it inspirational and beautiful, reminding me to look for brighter days in today, not tomorrow. 

    Go ahead. Call me an obsessed fangirl. Maybe I just proved that I am. Or maybe I just changed your outlook on those words. But whatever you think, if I have to be obsessed with anything, Owl City will always be a better pick than music about drugs and sex, and things that bring you down and cloud your thoughts with trash. 

    Owl City is pure, and I guarantee it will change your outlook on life. So why should I be ashamed to talk about it?

Wow, this is me. I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels this way. You described exactly what I’ve been thinking perfectly. Thank you.

Me too. This is the perfect description of how I feel. I’ve never really been able to understand why I find it slightly insulted when people say I’m “obsessed” with Owl City and this perfectly explains it. I also think this is a good description of why I get upset when people put down Owl City/Adam’s music. I guess I just get really sad that they aren’t able to see the beauty in it and the simple message it communicates. I think that if anyone really listens to the lyrics in his songs, their outlook on life could be changed completely. His music really is beautiful.

*Hiatus notice*

So starting today, I will be on a hiatus until mid-June. I just need to spend more time concentrating on school. I’ll be checking tumblr for messages once a week, so if you need to contact me at all, you still can. I’ll also still have a queue on. Hope you have a good few weeks! :)